DEIVATHIN KURAL # 67
(Vol # 6) Dated 13 Oct 2012
(These e-mails are translations of talks
given by PeriyavaaL of Kanchi Kaamakoti Peetam, over a period of some 60 years
while he was the pontiff in the earlier part of the last century. These have
been published by Vanadi Padippagam, Chennai, in seven volumes of a thousand
pages each as Deivathin Kural. Today we are going ahead from the middle of page
No 463 of Volume 6 of the Tamil original. The readers may note that herein
‘man/he’ includes ‘woman/she’ too mostly. These e-mails are all available at http://Advaitham.blogspot.com
344. When ‘Ahambhaavam’ is got rid of you become
absolutely light hearted. As otherwise,
if the idea gets into one’s head that Gnaanam is revealed or made known only to
some rare persons of superior worth and merit as Uttama Adhikaari, all his
worth and merit gets evaporated in a jiffy! So, it is essential that we bring
in a subservient attitude of compliance with devotion and implicit obedience
towards Brhmam through Bhakti. ‘However
much it may be sought by us, unless it decides to reveal itself, we can never
know’, should be the conviction in ourselves.
To inculcate such a mentality, only devotion can be of any use. Not only that the highest experience of
Self-Realization is yet to happen, whatever progress we have made so far in
Saadhana, is also God’s Grace only. Ours
is only to make the effort, the result or return is all God’s blessings. Even our efforts and intention to do so, is
Paramaatma’s Anugraha only. If such is
our attitude, as it is essential that we are to sacrifice all our possessions
and properties shortly as we take up Sannyaasa, we will be able to offer our
Ahambhaavam as the most important property of ours at stake!
345. The Place of Pride in Saadhana: Two Stages. When we talk of love and relation, there has
to be two persons. So, it is Duality /
Dwaitam that should come nowhere near in Adwaita Saadhana, is the general
opinion. From the time we start this
Saadhana process, for long that is how it will be. Till our understanding of Love is a matter of
liking, wanting, wishing and a transaction of some kind; it is taboo only. This is the initial stage. Then as the process of our Saadhana starts
bearing results and the Saadhak matures enough to comprehend the real meaning
of Love, there are no two entities as the giver and taker of love and it is
understood that what is being offered is oneself and what is being obtained is
Oneness! When this sense or idea is
inhered and being practiced, then there is no resolution or dissolution, but
only diffusion without difference! Such
a love when matured and ripened by constant practice, it becomes unconditional
and universal Anbu – அன்பு. That is the end stage!
what Aim does one start this process of Saadhana? He does so with the aim that he should reach
and become Brhmam himself. Then he
carries on as per the suggested steps of Saadhana. Then on reaching Brhmam, does he become the
Brhmam? No, not at all! Actually neither does he reach, nor does he
become. He realizes that he is not what
he thought he was and that he is already Brhmam only. All that he thought that he was goes. He is no more what he thought he was, to
start with. When Ahamkaar is erased, he
realizes that he is already that! More
as a courtesy, symbolically he is said to do Aatma Saakshaatkaara of seeing the
Aatma directly before his eyes. Actually
he can do nothing to the Brhmam. What really happens is that the Saadhak is no
more at the end stage. He dropped all
that was not Brhmam through all that effort of Saadhana. One is only reminded of the story by
Ramakrishna Paramahamsa, of an idol made of salt which went to measure the
depth of the ocean! The salt idol
dissolved in to nullity without a trace and became the already existing ocean,
losing his or its original wrong identity!
Thus he has to be ready and keen about being swallowed without a trace;
that is the higher grade of Bhakti required here.
have to be released from the binding ties, I have to reach the Brhmam and I
have to become the Brhmam’. Such
thoughts with a lot of ‘I’-ness is there at the start of Saadhana. At that moment, his will and intention has to
be there. Then, that is to start with, he
could not be thinking of sacrificing himself.
One will be afraid of such an eventuality. I have come across many aspirants from India
and the West, intelligent and physically well to do people, cringing at the
idea of losing their individuality! Even
if one is courageous to start with, the Jiva Bhaava, the sense of being a
unique individual will not go at once.
That will go only when all the Karma ‘vinai’ ‘வினை’ (residual good
and bad effects of past Karma-s) are cancelled out and lingering taste and
smell of the past known as Vaasanaas go.
Chatushtyam is there for this very purpose of getting rid of the residual Karma
effects and Vaasanaas of the past. You
have to persevere with the intention that, ‘I have to have Viveka’, till you
feel, ‘I have attained a fair degree of Viveka’. Similarly you have to work at
attaining and then strengthening your Vairaagya. Point to note is that, in all
these activities, your Ahankaara has to be there, not only for motivating
oneself, but also for correcting oneself when you slip and slide from the
path. “Oho! I have erred.
I have to be more careful and practice steadily, strictly and
regularly!” Such a thought will be there
only when your sense of individuality is there.
Instead if you are going to talk half-baked philosophy, you will end up
saying, “After all, this ‘I’ is not there!
The whole world is a Maya. What
is progress and what is retrogression?
Whatever happens does happen for the best. Why bother at all?” Just imagining as though one has reached the
highest level of clarity of having mastered one’s own ego, while simultaneously
be buffeted by flimsy old Vaasanaas, without any effort to get out of the
clutches of the past, would only mean hypocrisy and a one-way-ticket to a pathetic
the Saadhana is meant for this man who thinks of himself as an individual, so
that he may get rid of his Ahankaara only, isn’t it? If you do not even make an effort towards
that, it is a sheer waste of time and energy!
Does Aatma need to make any efforts to know or reach its own self? All the efforts are required only for getting
rid of the superfluous addenda. The
Saadhana is meant to starve this Ahankaara / Ahambhaavam to zero and so during
the progress, Ahambhaava will be there, as we make an effort to control senses,
mind, intellect and Ahankaara keeping them under strict vigilance. After having been successful to a large
extent in getting most of the garbage out of the system, finally having had the
Upadesa about the Aatma, at a stage when to constantly meditate on Aatma should
be our total interest and prerogative; we have to throw overboard all other
things including this Ahankaara. From
here onwards, instead of attaining or achieving, all that happens are due to God’s
Grace only and not the aspirant’s efforts.
That is why our AachaaryaaL has finished the Saadhana Chatushtyam with
Mumukshutvam. All that happens after
this are not his earnings or remuneration or gain. The SravaNa, Manana and Nidhidhyaasana; are
all meant for annulling this man’s separateness and mistaken identity.
are the fire-works bombs prepared? The explosive
chemicals are mixed and packed tightly in containers, detonator placed, initiating
fuse-wire kept in place partially hanging out-side, for setting fire and giving
time delay for us to get out of the way.
The whole thing is nicely wrapped in colourful decorative tin foil. Finally at the time of fire-works display,
once lighted, everything explode in to smithereens, leaving hardly a trace in
to thin air, don’t they? Similarly the
Ahankaaram explodes leaving no forwarding address! Though from the beginning everything happens
only by God’s Grace / Bhagawat Krupa; in the initial stages the Jivaatma has to
make certain preparatory moves of self-purification when the intention and
effort, play an important role. There is
no doubt that even that had to have Bhagawat Krupa. Now that cleansing part is over, the inner
Antah KaraNam has to move towards the Aatma Anubhava, step by step. Here surprisingly, instead of obtaining by
the aspirant, it is giving or sanction by the object! It looks like a clever transaction in that,
the aspirant is giving away his Jiva Bhaava and in turn getting Siva Stiti,
that is Saayujyam!
MaNikka Vaasagar says about this with poetic licence: – “தந்தது உன்றன்னை; கொண்டது என்றன்னை; சங்கரா ஆர் கொலோ சதுரர்“? MaNikka Vaasagar is saying, “Oh
God! You gave yourself to me and got me
in the bargain. Tell me as to who is cleverer?”
But in fact, there is no body left in balance to get Siva. Jiva goes or vanishes, leaving Siva, as it always
was, as before and afterwards. In the interregnum
we thought that we were also something worthwhile! That is why Bhakti is reintroduced here, to
prepare the aspirant for the total annihilation of his Ahankaara, as though our
AachaaryaaL is saying, “You have earned a lot of assets by Saadhana, such as
Shatka Sampathi, Vairaagya and Viveka.
Now you have to learn to vacate by giving yourself as an offering to God
/ Aatma. So, I have kept the higher
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